Finding the courage to be yourself

An intimate and offbeat memoir that penetrates the heart and mind, Starving in Search of Me is a companion piece for young adults who have struggled with eating disorders or other issues related to body image, identity, sexuality, and trying to find their voice in a modern world that can feel dangerous and overwhelming. The book provides readers an opportunity to be themselves, in addition to tools and resources to help them heal, cope, and live a more authentic life.


“A thoughtful and enlightening meditation on body image, identity, sexuality, and self-acceptance.”
— Aydian Dowling, LGBTQ+ Activist and YouTube Influencer
“Starving in Search of Me is a significant work of honesty that is going to provide company and hope to many who are struggling with the weight of a world that isn’t always easy to stand out in. Now more than ever before, young people need courageous voices like Marissa’s to guide and reassure them that what makes them different is what makes them beautiful. And what makes us suffer makes us human―we are all connected to one another through shared experiences of triumph, failure, and vulnerability. If you’ve ever struggled with an eating disorder, or any other form of self-harm or addiction, this book will resonate and gracefully navigate you toward hope, meaning, and light. In my opinion, Marissa has accomplished something pretty substantial here―she’s found a way to articulate in words the intangible depths of an experience that is hers, and all of ours.”
— Kate Flowers, plant-based advocate, author, and YouTube influencer
“An intimate and engrossing memoir meets an empowering self-help guide for sufferers of anorexia and bulimia.”
— Joshua Rosenthal, Founder and Director of the Institute for Integrative Nutrition.
“Starving In Search of Me is a true companion piece for anyone who has ever struggled with food or themselves. Marissa dives deep into the emotional layers we all struggle with and offers readers a compassionate voice and the opportunity to simply be themselves.”
— Lindsey Smith, award-winning author of Food Guilt No More



Too many people experience shame around sex.

But in reality, when it comes to sexuality and desire, there is no such thing as "normal." Beneath the labels and masks we hide behind, we are all equally human. Everyone Is a Freak unleashes the voices of sex and gender outlaws and "ordinary" people, challenging social expectations. The collection includes essays and quotes from individuals of various genders and sexual orientations. These intimate confessions will empower humans everywhere to "come out of the closet," so to speak—to be more vulnerably honest and less afraid. From funny and embarrassing sex scandals and zany fetishes... to heartwrenching confessions about discrimination and oppression, Everyone Is a Freak will make you laugh, cry, and lower your guard to humanity.


Each page is a surprise—some delightful and some heartbreaking; so eloquently spoken in the voices of dozens of sex and gender outsiders, insiders, and people who take no side at all. Everyone Is a Freak is a must-read for everyone.
— Kate Bornstein, author of Gender Outlaw
Honest and provocative. An intimate glimpse behind the masks and labels people wear in their daily lives.
— Erika Lust, Indie Erotic Film Director
Everyone Is a Freak offers an intimate peek into the sexual psyche of everyday people and an intensely gratifying response to the question, ‘Am I normal?’ The answer, exampled page after page with resounding confirmation: none of us are normal, so drop the shame and let your freak flag fly.
— Jiz Lee, editor of Coming Out Like a Porn Star